******UPDATE********

She is home now, they are doing ok, as well as can be expected. They are having a funeral for the baby on Tuesday. His lungs were not developed so he was stilborn. If he would have been alive when he was born he would have suffocated, so I guess in a sense it was a blessing. She did get to hold him though and that was a huge thing for her. I will be goin to see her tonite.

OK, as if it has not been a bad enough week..... My best friend called me this morning. She went into labor last night. They lost the baby. Her water broke and she gave birth to a baby boy. They named him Simon Gabriel. The baby had a heartbeat and was moving up until birth. She called me this morning with the bad news, utterly devastated. Not that I blame her in the least. They are in the process of planning a small funeral for him. She did get to hold him. I am still in shock, I cannot believe that this has happened to her. Well, I am outta here. Goin to make some plans and go see her. Please keep her and her family in your prayers. She means the world to me and I am extremely upset.
I know that some think that a preggers woman is carrying a fetus and may not be as touched by this as others... I have to say that I think no matter the gestation of the pregnancy its a BABY. It may not be able to live outside the mother, but let me tell you, being a mother and carrying a baby is like no other feeling in the world. You love the baby no matter what. You feel the movements, you get to hear the heart beat, you fall in love with the baby regardless of not being able to hold it. So to some it was a fetus she miscarried... but to others like her and myself... he was a baby, a human being that deserves love and respect like anyone else...
We love you little Simon Gabriel. I would have loved to have spent time with you and love you like my own.

The niece of my best friends sister in law passed away last night. She was 18 yrs old and was goin to graduate in June. Her sister is goin to accept her diploma for her and she is goin to have the Marines there for her funeral, she was joined up and supposed to leave for training right after graduation. Today was also the funeral of my girlfriends grandpa. My thoughts and prayers are with you all!!! No real news in the last couple of days other than that.... My grandpa is in the hospital for some tests. He has been falling down and his blood sugar is hitting real highs and real lows so they are tryin to figure out what is wrong with that and with some of his other issues, like falling. Not quite sure when he will be out.

Ok, so I really suck at keepin up with my blog lately. It seems like I have gotten extremely busy and put it off. Oh, well. My weekend was great. Hubby went fishin all day Friday with a friend of his. He had a lot of fun and was nice and relaxed.... I went out Saturday night with my girlfriend Bev, it was great. I was just goin to go up to Applebees for a few drinks, but her girlfriend Michelle called and wanted us to come down to Floods and Karaoke with them (there is not enough alchohol in the world to get me to karaoke). WE sat around and talked there, it was a lot of fun. We closed the bar and decided that we still wanted to hang out so we ended up at POP's. A bar in Illinois. That was a very interesting night. I have never seen such a different group of ppl. Course it was also 2 in the morning and most of the ppl there were drunk. But it was strange to see all the different ppl there. The band was great, the ppl were even better to watch and the dancing and company was great! We did not get home til 5.... so I spent all SUnday getting over that :o) I had one beer the whole night... oh and a sip of a chocolate martini. Which was very good. Ok now for the seriousness of the weekend....

My prayers go out to my friend Deanna and her family. Her grandpa died a couple of days ago and she is in pretty bad shape. My prayers also go out to my best friends sister in law... Her niece was in a car accident a couple of nights ago and it does not look like she is goin to make it. My thoughts and prayers are with you all. I love you guys!!!!!

My cousin, Mike, had his graduation on Sunday and I went up there with my family to see him graduate. It was a great experience. I went out to my Aunts house on Saturday night and stayed the night so that I did not have to get up at 6 in the morning. Michelle, my cousin, and I had a great time catching up and chatting all night and it was a fun trip out with my other cousin and one of Michelle's girlfriends. Michelle is goin to move out to Colorado for the summer so that she can be with her boyfriend and then will be back here with her boyfriend once he gets out of the Army. I cannot wait to meet him, he sounds like a great guy. Anyways, the graduation was great, they split it up over 3 days so that it would not take forever to get through. He has his degree in International business and is now goin to go back to school to become a lawyer. We all went out to lunch afterwards and I had my first Colorado bulldog (a drink for those that did not know) I LOVED it.... think it ranms up there with some of my fav drinks :o) His girlfriend and her family also came up for the graduation so it was great to meet her family and see her again. He graduated from Mizzou. I have added some pics from Sunday on my pics area.
I also added a pic of my moms dance group. They went to Ft.Leonardwood for a dance for the soldiers there. They have been doin a lot of dances lately and she really loves it. I am glad that she has a hobby that she loves and has fun with.

My prayers are with Nick Berg's family. I cannot believe that people can be so cruel, so mean and so unbelievable. I have to say that I do not agree with what our soldiers did to the Iraqi prisoners but in comparisson to what those assholes have done to us its nothing. They are killing our soldiers, killing our contractors that are there trying to help rebuild their hell hole of a country. I am outraged that it is ok for them to KILL our people and the whole world gets PISSED at us for this, yes we are above that and NO we should not be doing it, but what about the rest of the world??? Is it ok to KILL our soldiers and contractors??? NO NO NO NO NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NEVER!!!!!! Yes, the soldiers that did wrong should be in trouble but these assholes that are killing our ppl need to be taken out. It is outrageously unbelievable. I am so very upset about the whole situation. Yes, I know the contractors know what they are getting into when they go to Iraq but they should not be in the grave danger that they are in. Why can the Iraqi people not be grateful for what we are doing? Oh and I do not believe that Donald Rumsfeld should be the fall guy for the whole BS. He cannot control what every soldier does. They have to be responsible for their own actions and I hope that they are punished appropriately. But I do not think that there should be consequences for Rumsfeld over it. OK. I am done for now. I am truly saddened by the situation and my prayers are with Nick and his family. God Bless

A FEW DAYS LATE.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY 9 YEAR OLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday was National Scrapbook day for all those scrapbookers out there you know what an awesome day it is.... a day to just scrapbook ALL day long :o) What a wonderful excuse! My best friend, another friend and myself went scrapbooking with our Creative Memories friend and had a BLAST!!!! I managed to get 8 pages done... not that great, but more than what I would have gotten done had I not gone. It was from 10am to 10 pm. Now for the bad part of the day....
A couple of days ago the older 2 kids came down with a cold... soar throat, congestion, coughing and just generally feeling crappy, well on Friday the younger 2 and I come down with it.... I have had a sleepless couple of nights with the kids whining at night. Then last night..... I get home a little after 10 and things are fairly quiet...I go to bed around midnight and finally start to doze off around 1.... then IT starts... the neighbors across the street decide that they want to start their STUPID F*ING cars, and turn the STEREOS UP as loud as they can... to the point I can hear the words of the songs... and I am in the BACK of our house... and the kids are in the front of the house.... well.... being that I am sick and in a general pissy mood... I get rather BITCHY..... I throw on a tshirt and shorts go to my front door and SCREAM "TURN THE SHIT OFF, I HAVE 4 SICK KIDS THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" The only thing I hear is the word "damn" from them.... NO, I WAS NOT NICE, YES, I regretted what I did... (sort of) I WAS PISSED!!!!!!!!!!!! We deal with this every weekend, the car I have managed to get used to... it still wakes up the kids with the stupid revving it does... but the music BLARING outside my kids windows at 1 in the morning is where I turn from bitch to MEGA BITCH especially when I am sick and the kids are sick... Well, needless to say we did not hear another word from them.. a few slammed car doors and that was it.... BUT, I did manage to piss my husband off. He did not like what I did and told me that I was waking the neighbors... My response to that... THEY ARE ALREADY AWAKE FROM THE ASSHOLES ACROSS THE STREET!!!!!! I just did what everyone else wanted to do, but did not have the nerve to do. Hubby called me a bitch and is now not talking to me... says that the neighbors are probably goin to do something to our cars....my response to that was if they do we will know exactly who did it and they will regret it. I have no enemies in the neighborhood. I get along with my immediate neighbors (other than the assholes with NO respect for other ppl) and figure that they are not stupid enough to do anything to our cars. I am thinkin that I will apologize to my nice neighbors... and continue to be a bitch to the assholes across the street...... After the wonderful fiasco I finally managed to go to sleep around 3 this morning.. So needless to say I am still in a pissy mood, still dont feel good and still am riling for a fight.... BRING IT :o) I am sure some of you are thinking what a BITCH... well, to tell you the truth... I KNEW that already and I do like to prove that point every once in a while... Guess I just proved it to my neighbors... hmmmmm, I wonder if they will ever borrow sugar from me........