And to think I thought things were finally going to look better for our lives... Well, I talked to my mom on Saturday and found out that my grandma that I love and adore has about 2 months to live. The doctors have said that her breast cancer has progressed to a stage 4. My grandma has requested of my aunt that she be put in a nursing home so that she is not a bother for any of us in the family. My aunt refused and said that if it gets to that point we will all work it out and not put her in a home. She does not deserve that and no one wants that for her. In just over a month it will be a year since my grandpa died and the thought of losing my grandma around that same time just is really unbearable. Losing her at all is unbearable, but it just does not seem fair. She is not in a lot of pain yet. She is still controlling her pain with tylenol and is still able to get around but the doctors are expecting her to start going downhill fast. Expect that she will be bed ridden and in a lot of pain before too long.
I went and spent Saturday night with grandma, my dad, my aunt and her husband. She assured me that this is the way she wants it and that this was the right decision for her. She does not want an operation, chemo, or radiation. She just wants to live out the rest of her life with quality and not quantity. I have to respect her decision and think that I would probably go the same route if I were her too. It hurts like hell, but its her decision and I will respect it.
We stayed there til a little after midnight, played tile rummy and just talked. I want some one on one time with her but have yet to do that since my aunt seems to have moved in with her, at least it feels that way. My parents and I decided that we were going to make a dinner and take it to her on Sunday. Normally she likes to go out to eat and treat us all, but we decided that for once we would treat her. I made a big ham, mashed potatoes and some bread and we had salad, veggies etc. My other aunt and uncle came over and we had a great family dinner.
I will just have to make sure that I get over there more often to visit with her and just spend quality time with her. I have been tryin to go over at least once a week, now I am going to have to do it more often.
In other things... my best friend is doing good. She had her staples removed today. Cecilia is doing good. They are having a few issues with her sugar being too high but are trying to get it controlled. They have been holding her quite a bit and it seems she is really progressing beautifully. There are a few things here and there but overall she seems to be doing good. I need to make it back up to the hospital to see her too but have not had the time to do it yet... Hope all is well with everyone else. Back to getting stuff done around my house...