We made it through yet another week. Friday we had a Girl Scout thing where the girls were given their patches and awards of sorts, which were patches. My younger daughter got a pot of fake daisies and a few more of her petals, and my older daughters troop did not participate at all. Luckily it was short and sweet and we were out of there in about an hour. It was a really busy week and I was really quite tired of being on the go constantly. Saturday morning I left at 8 to get to my dads store to let my Creative Memories lady in to get set up for our crop and then had to leave to get to my daughters basketball game. They lost, again... They have yet to make a basket and it really does get discouraging! They do pretty good defensively, but it takes them about 35 minutes to really get into the groove of things and actually be aggressive and PLAY. So that leaves the last 5 minutes of the game for them to actually PLAY. Which of course by that time they are beat. But, they are learning and doing a little better each week. Hopefully they will all play next year and will really learn some techniques.
After my daughters game I went scrap booking, which I was really looking forward to. Unbelievably I got 20 pages done! Hubby and the kids went to Hobby Lobby and they each picked out a few scrap booking things for me and brought them up to me, which was really sweet!! I got all of my Halloween pictures done and also got Magic House pictures done, which was more than I thought I was going to get done! The Magic House is an amazing place for the kids to learn and explore and just plain have fun. If you are ever in the area, I really recommend a stop there! They always have something fun going on and its great for the kids. Sunday was our lazy day. I went to the store looking for a few scrap booking things for my brothers football album, that I hope to start next time I scrapbook. Hubby took 2,700+ pics from all his games, practices and the banquet at the end of the season. So I am going to have to be picky about what I put in the album! But I definitely have a good selection of pictures to choose from!
Well, back to getting things done before the kids get home from school. I hope that all is well with everyone!

Happy Friday!! Life has been as hectic as usual. I feel like I have officially become the taxi driver for my kiddos and its only going to get worse. We are in full swing of Girl Scout cookie sales. We are also selling raffle tickets for Baseball/Softball. Our older 2 have signed up for Baseball and Softball. I am not sure what the schedule is going to be yet but one more thing to take up time! It seems that 4 nights of the week are taken up now. Between my 2 girls in Girl Scouts there is basketball, which is going to end soon, and I am now doing Volleyball. Us moms decided that we needed some time to get together without just sitting around waiting for our kids and will start playing volleyball on Tuesdays. Oh, and don't forget to add in Chiropractor appointments for my daughter!! Which have gone from 3 times a week to 2. *sigh*
My oldest really wants to join Boy Scouts, so I am sure that we will be doing that really soon. Then there is the upcoming Baseball and Softball. Luckily my younger daughter did not want to play softball, so that is a bonus :o) And our youngest only talks about football so we will have to see about getting him into pee wee football at some point. Probably not this year but maybe the following year, maybe even soccer for a couple of them.
Tonight is the Girl Scout ceremony where they get their patches and for those that are bridging. That should be exciting :o) * insert sarcasm* Luckily I get some time to myself tomorrow and will be able to scrapbook!!! We have my older daughters basketball game first thing in the morning and a make-up game later that afternoon but I should be able to get in quite a bit of scrapbooking time. Which at this point I am really looking forward to.
I did get some sad news this week. My aunt called to let me know that my great aunt Dory died on Monday. She was the only surviving sibling of my grandma's. The cousin that has been taking care of them in Kansas City is going to have her cremated and no service. She has her hubby left but he is in really bad shape and decided against a service, which kind of upsets me. She did not have anybody in KC but my uncle, yet I feel like it is just not right to not have a service. They had lived in Arizona for a really long time and my uncle hates being in KC and my aunt had Alzheimer's really bad and was in a nursing home and fell into a coma sometime last week and then passed away on Monday in her sleep. My aunt that told me had just got out of the hospital for bronchitis and did not find out til Tuesday night and I found out on Wednesday. I do not even know where she will be buried, if they are even going to bury her... hopefully they will at least do that right and I can eventually take a trip to KC to see my uncle and visit her grave.
Well, I have cookies to bake, so I better get to it. I hope that everyone's weekend is a great one!

I finally have a moment to sit down and write a post. Things have been so busy and hectic that finding a few moments to write something seems virtually impossible! I did get to scrapbook a couple of weeks ago. It was nice to get out and get some pages done! This weekend was my older daughters birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY Girly Girl :o) She is the BIG 10! She had a sleepover with her girlfriends. There were 10 girls in all. Good times, good times. Then Sunday was her actual birthday and we celebrated with my parents. Then last night was the High School Musical Concert. It was me, my daughter, my next door neighbor, her daughter, one of the girls friend, and another little girl from their class and her mother. So all of us went to dinner and headed downtown for the concert. Jordan Pruitt opened for HSM but we missed it since we were stuck in traffic. It was a sold out concert. Our seats were not the best, but not the worst either. We were in front of the stage up a ways. The girls absolutely loved it, they squealed, bounced around and were just flat out ecstatic. One of the main characters was not there since he is filming Hairspray with John Travolta, but the fill in was pretty amazing and the girls were goo goo over him. My daughters favorite is Vanessa Hutchings and most of the other girls adore Ashley Tisdale.
The songs were great, all of them from HSM and Ashley had a few of her own from her new album, Vanessa had a couple from her album and Corbin had a few from his, so an hour and a half of screaming, ecstatic girls. My idea of a great night out! :o) We finally made it home around 11. Oh, and the most exciting part... there is going to be a High School Musical 2 coming out this Summer... LUCKY LUCKY us!!! The girls are so excited they are already talking about going to see it. More Getch'a Getch'a Getch'a Head In the Game to come! You know, the saddest part of it... I LIKE the songs and Kelly and I were singing the songs along with the other 20,000 people in the arena! :o) Yeah, I admit it, I like the songs and think that the movie really is pretty great, especially for kids!
*Sigh* That was me admitting I enjoyed the concert :o) I enjoyed the one on one time I got with our daughter and my hubby got out of going to a concert with 20,000 screaming little kids! Hubby did take the day off so that he would be home in time for us to leave. It was nice to just have some time off with him. It is not very often that we just get to be alone. All the kids were in school and him and I got to do some running around without having to worry about the kids. We are trying to get stuff prepared for when we go to Minnesota. We are all still planning on going so we have a lot to do before we go. It is not too far off and hopefully we will get some answers for our daughter.
I am also planning on going to Korea. My mom and brother are going to go this year and my mom really wants me to go too. My mom's dad is still there and is getting up there in age and cannot make a 14 hour flight here so he wants us to come to him. I have never met him and would love to go there and meet him. I would also just love to go back to Korea. It has been 13 years since I have been there and I really want to experience it all again. I loved it when I went as a teenager and think that I would appreciate it more now that I am an adult. We are planning on 2 weeks, I am not sure I will stay a full 2 weeks but I definitely want to go for at least a week. All of our kiddos will be in school so it will just be before and after school that I have to worry about. I wish that all of us could go, I would love for our kiddos to experience something like this but unfortunately it is not in our budget. I would also love for my hubby to be able to go, to be there to experience my heritage with me. But he is the one that is going to be taking care of the kids! Plus, I would worry about him starving since he will not touch any of the Korean food! :o)
Ok, well it is time for me to get up and about since all my kiddos are in school. Hope all is well with everyone!

This blog was supposed to be a place where I could express how I felt without fear of being questioned or critisized for how I felt. I have had this thing for a long time and have for the most part said what is exactly on my mind. Til now. My husband asked me why I did not mention him in my posts. The main reason I do not mention him, especially by name is because of the job that he has and he has told me on several occassions what a "security risk" it is. He does not like that I post personal information about myself on here. I have kept what I say very vague.
So I have a post about my husband and talk about him. Today I get questioned "so why did you feel that you had to add something about me on your blog now?" I thought that I made the answer clear in the post about my husband, but I guess it was not clear enough. Him and I have had many conversations concerning this blog. There are times that I post and just let my thoughts flow and do not think twice about them. Especially when it comes to my grandparents, I do not feel like anyone can understand what I am going through therefore I just post them here to get them out. It is not meant to be mean in any way. I just do not feel that anyone can understand, nor do I WANT anyone to. I just want them out and do not want to talk about them. Just let the feelings and thoughts out of my head. I know that I am a very complex person and that my feelings are obscured in a lot of ways. I know that my thought process and what I do with them is also very obscure and strange. I cannot explain how I feel, why I express them the way that I do, why I do not like talking about them with anyone, I just DO. I have managed to hurt my husbands feelings in posting things that he does not know. My intentions were never to hurt him, but to just be ME. He has tried explaining to me that he is hurt at the fact that he has to read my feelings with the rest of the world instead of them coming from me straight to him and has asked me questions about it. I generally blow up at this. I do not feel that my feelings should be questionable. I just feel that what I write about should just BE. Not questionable, not talkable, just BE. He does not understand that, he believes that because he cares about me and asks me questions about it that I should just be open and willing to talk about things. On most matters, I do not mind discussing things, on others, I just flat out do NOT want to talk about it. I just plain want to get my thoughts out and be done with it.
Hell, I have no idea who even reads my blog, if there is even anyone out there that does. Truly, this blog is for me, and I have not considered others feelings when it comes to this thing. I am sure that it seems like a heartless bitch of a thing to say, but this is my space. My feelings are not negotiable under any circumstance whether people agree with them or not. Again, a cold heartless bitch of a thing to say, but the way that I feel. If I hurt someones feelings it is never what my intentions are and I am sorry for it. But I will not be sorry for my thoughts and the way that they are displayed. I cannot be sorry for the way that I am either. I deal with different things in different ways. I had such different emotions when it came to both of my grandparents deaths that I feel weird about it. I grieved for months and months and still do when I think of my grandpa, I get emotional and cry even at the mention of him. I grieve in an entirely different way for my grandma and rarely get teary eyed thinking about her being gone. I do not understand WHY I do, I just do. Its just the way things are.
I guess you can say that I am a very selfish, inconsiderate bitch and I am not sure that I would disagree with that. I just know that sometimes it is easiest for me to just sit here, think my thoughts and let them flow instead of talking about them first. I do not think of the consequences of my thoughts, I just do it. Maybe that is careless, maybe that is heartless, and I do not mean for them to be nor do I understand WHY I have to be that way, its just ME.

I was informed last night that I do not blog enough about my husband. I did not mention my anniversary in the last post, but I will do it now. Our anniversary was on the 30th and we planned a night out. My brother babysat the kiddos for us and we went to dinner at a restaurant called Bristol. It is an awesome restaurant with wonderful food, mainly seafood, which is one of my favorites. Hubby had a steak and I had crab cakes that were phenomenal. Afterward instead of bowling we decided to go to one of the casinos. We did not bring our cards with us so we ended up in line for about an hour waiting for a reprinted card, which was absolutely ridiculous. When we finally got into the casino we played the quarter slots. Hubby ended up winning quite a bit and I lost all that I played, which is not uncommon for me! I have no luck when it comes to the slots. So I stayed with him while he was up and then he ended up losing and we decided that was enough! It really was an awesome time. The casino has an excellent atmosphere and we were close to where the girls did their dancing thing so it was entertaining. It was an enjoyably relaxing night, just the 2 of us.
On to other stuff. Hubby and I were talking last night about the possible Presidential candidates... I told him that I would vote for Giuliani, hands down. I think that he is an amazing man. He has a past, and its not the prettiest picture, but who doesn't have a past?? He has been open about it, in my opinion, not denying things like others out there. Then I said to my hubby... What do you think the chances are that Clinton and Obama will run together?? Would that not just be completely extreme?? A white woman and a black man as President and VP? I just do not think that would fly, I think they would have a shot if it was one or the other, but together it is too extreme. He does not think that that will ever happen, but I am not so sure... I do not think the world is ready for that yet. Hubby made the point that a woman has run England for decades, what would the difference be? I think that being the most powerful person in the world, opposed to a queen is the major difference. The President of the United States has a lot more power than a queen of England. At the very least is in the spotlight a whole heck of a lot more than the queen. Hubby said this morning that he heard on the radio that a political analyst said that it was possible that Clinton and Obama would run together, not saying which would be running for President and VP. If I had to guess I would say Clinton for President and Obama for VP. Despite how popular Obama is, I do not think that he has been around long enough. I have been searching news stories and have found one of Clinton/Obama, not about them running together but if there is a difference between the 2. Overall, I think if the 2 run together it will be an extreme awakening for us all to see how ready we are for the huge change, or if we will stick with someone who was a hero during the 9/11 tragedy. I know that Bush has caused issues and that a lot of people are unhappy with him, as it is their right to be. But, I for one am not ready for a change that extreme and have to say that my vote will be going to Giuliani. All that coming from a woman who is a minority! Right or wrong, I am not ready for such a change. That and the fact that I really do not like Clinton. I am indifferent about Obama, but Clinton to me is a hard calloused spoiled bitch.
Well, that is enough for me today! The kids are in school again!!! Thank goodness! So I am off to clean house and do laundry. Happy day to all!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! I hope that everyone has the happiest and most prosperous year to come! I am definetely rooting for the happiness part! It seems life has been such a roller coaster that it would be nice for it to even out and just be a calm year. NO sickenesses to deal with, no hospitals or deaths, just a quiet boring year is what I want.
I look back on 2006 and realize that we started out the year in a hospital, we dealt with our daughter being sick for the month of January, hubby losing his job over our daughter being in and out of the hospital so much, a pretty quiet couple of months, then finding out my grandma was going to die and then losing her in November. Of course there is my best friend who was on bed rest and then had the baby in February and her being there for almost 3 months. So I spent a good portion of my year going to a hospital or in a hospice house, 6 almost 7 months of all that! Its been a crazy year that is for sure. Now dealing with my grandparents estate has been a whole new stress level on the family. I think my whole family wishes we could rid my aunt of her horrible husband. There is not one of us that likes him but his wife and that is not saying much since she does not have any taste! He has been calling and badgering my aunt about money and she is sick of it, considering it should not be him talking about it, but his wife. My grandparents were very clear in the fact that it was to be dealt with between their children and the spouses were to stay out of it! But he has yet to respect that wish and has been badgering my aunt, who is not even the executor of the estate! Yet, when he does talk to my dad he does not say a thing about money, does not ask one question about it. He does not argue one point when talking to my dad. Luckily my dad is not a pushover and will put him in his place.
I finally got a chance to spend a little time with my best friend the other night. She wanted to borrow some of my scrapbooking stuff so I took it to her and got to spend a little time with her and the baby. Cecilia has gotten so big!! I cannot believe that she will be 1 next month. It seems like just the other day that she was in the hospital fighting for her life. Now she is a growing baby that is just really progressing beautifully. She is still tiny, all 14 lbs of her, but she is rolling around and is starting to scoot along the floor, so I am sure she will be crawling before too long.
There are so many things I reflect on from the past year and realize what a crazy one it was. I could have lost my daughter to an infection, had she not been taken such good care of, the chances were high that we could have lost her. I could have also lost my best friend, the baby was such a risk to her life, she was on so many meds, and had she not been monitored so closely, and had such a good team of doctors that we could have lost her also. There is also the baby, Cecilia was such a fighter! There were a few times that things were not looking so good for her, but she is here and the sweetest little princess! So, I guess there are so many things to be thankful for also. I still have my daughter, best friend and her princess. We are still dealing with the sickness from my daughter, but we are working on that and hopefully will get her back to herself sometime soon. If not from the chiropractor then hopefully the Mayo clinic.
I am sure there are so many other things to mention, I have either not thought about them, or have decided that I do not want to share them with anyone. Though there were all the sad times, there were also a lot of happy. My daughters are really coming around to all the different activities and have excelled in school. My youngest daughter was tested for the gifted program, and though she has not made it yet, I am sure that she will when she is willing to do it. They love cheerleading and Poms, love Girl Scouts, and my older one loves basketball. My youngest loves school and is really starting to improve on his speech, my oldest is doing a little better in school and will hopefully join Boy Scouts before too long. I have enjoyed the children so much more since they have been in school. It is so much less stress on me to teach them and is so much better for them.
Oh, and I did add a word verification to my comments thing. I keep getting spam shit. I do not have erectile dysfunction and really do not like to surf porn so all the spam stuff is rather annoying! It does not display info about anyone, its just a deterent to the damn spam. OK, I think I will end this post. Again, I hope that everyone has a great 2007.