Things have been very busy and very emotional around here. We found out that my grandma's cancer is in the final stage of stage 4. Which is the last stage of the cancer. She is still very dizzy and some days does not even get out of bed. The cancer is at least the size of a grapefruit and is going to eventually rupture. From the way the nurse explained it she will be in such excruciating pain that they will have to drug her and she will be in a constant doped state of mind. Nothing is going to make her better at this point. The nurse was saying this could happen at any time and we are talking a matter of a month or so, if that, or if her heart takes her, since that is working at less than 25% capacity. I am trying my best to cope with this, I know the facts, I know that my grandma would be so much better off dying before the cancer ruptures and that she would be with my grandpa and with her son, but at the same time the selfish parts of me wants her HERE, without the pain and with us and with the kids but I just know that is not going to happen. That is just the really selfish part of me that wants to keep her.
The nurse told my grandma about everything and she took it well, I truly believe that she knew about it and was trying to spare her family. My aunts have been taking turns staying with my grandma so that she is not left alone at any time. At this point we have turned hospice house down since grandma does not feel that she needs it at this time and really does not even think that someone needs to be with her 24 hrs a day. But that is not going to happen since leaving her alone would not be good. I have been spending a lot of time with her and taking the kids with me to see her whenever possible.
The kids have had a great couple of weeks of school and we are into a good routine. Our oldest son is having issues adjusting and we have met with his teacher to try and straighten his problems out and it seems to work for a day and then he is back to his old ways. I wish I could strip part of his DNA out and make the lazies go away. He has a disrespect issue when it comes to the teacher and that seiously horrifies me since my children were not raised that way. The teacher is awesome and I really like her and she is all about tough love, which I really believe my son needs. My daughters are doing great in school. Both loving it and really embracing the new experience. My older daughter is a perfectionist and she actually came home with 1 F on a paper and all the rest were A's. She was bawling by the time she told me she got the F and we had to sign and return her paper to school. It truly was not all that tragic since it did not do anything to her overall grade. My younger daughter who I thought we would have problems with is a star student and is doing a great job at learning. There is a little boy that is picking on her and if the teacher does not do something soon about it I have a feeling my daughter is going to take things into her own hands and the little boy will be going down. She will only take so much crap from someone before she blows and when she does it is NOT pretty. That is one little girl that can hold her own and the wrath of her is not something to be taken lightly. So for the little boys sake I hope he knocks off his crap before my daughter sends him crying.
We went to my brothers first football game last Friday and it was a great game. They did not get totally creamed like everyone thought that they would. They did lose 29-20 but nothing like what everyone was thinking. This Friday is going to be a different story, I think, but we will be there cheering for him!! We still do not know what game my daughters will be cheerleading at but we will be there for our girls cheering them on!!! We are hoping it is not the game that where my brother plays my old high school. :o) That game is also my younger daughters birthday, but knowing my luck it will be. Which means my daughters will be cheering for my old high school and not for their uncle. Which he does not want! He likes when his nieces cheer for him.
Tonite is the night we sign my girls up for girl scouts too. *sigh* One thing after another! To think I thought I was going to have MORE time since my kids are in school, well it has turned out to be pretty much the opposite. I have had little time and the day does not seem to be long enough for me to get much done. Speaking of which, I have to make some pumpkin bread for my grandma and go and visit with her! Hope all is well out there in the world!!!